I'm falling but..

I'm falling but you're not...
I'm falling but you're stronger..
I'm falling but you're pushing me away..
I'm falling but you're leaving..
I'm falling but you're moving on..
I'm falling but I'm scared..
I'm falling and I will never stop dreaming of you..

I'm falling and that's a fact

Will you raise me up will you help me down..
Will you hold me sacred will you hold me tight..
Can you colorize my life I'm sick of black and white

I can do that

confused!!!

Am I starting to acquire the bad habit of judging people with no reason? Is this the devil inside doing his tricks on the people? Where will this lead to? It is bad to judge people but it mostly comes from observing people and how they behave and me as a person I like to observe, watch and keep my distance. It's not about judging as much as it's trying to know the people around you to know how to deal with them, it's not always the case that you have to like them, you can't hang out with them but not becoming one of your closest friends, again keeping your distance. Keeping the distance is not necessarily bad. Not opening up to people is not a bad thing, they don't have to know everything about your life except the ones you like to share and talk to. The hard part is not to upset people from you or not be rude. Don't know how to do it but one should balance.
3amatan No Body is Perfect

new job!!!

I guess as my favorite friend said new jobs are always like that. The first days have to be boring and nothing to do, now I wish I have one free hour as I used to have before. I'm working in Bank when I've graduated from german literature and almost all my friends know how good I am in math and Banks (haye2fel 3ala idi isa). I'm working in Piraeus as a loan officer in the corporate department, its really cool and fun but very hectic, people are very friendly they remind me of the AIESEC people and the cool atmosphere I only wish we had to do roll call every morning to cheer people up and wake them up. However, instead we spend the first 2 hours doing nothing but talking and talking and talking till our bosses come and give us the mean look (start work you have tons of S** to do).

It's actually fun and challenging at the same time. I'm enjoying it and guess what now I actually know math. I'm using excel sheet for the first time of my life other than SN name, ID, qualifications and these things, I'm usuing it for Balance sheet and Income statements, so I guess I will apply for any finacial postion that will be opened in AIESEC :-)))

P.S. 40÷10=4 :-))

the longest 8 hours

wow, I've been wanting to blog about it a long time ago but was too lazy to blog.

I was never bored in my life like on my first day at work. Hours were passing by slowly to the extend that I fell asleep finding myself waking up and only 5mins have passed. People are very nice and friendly but not knowing what you should do, or what your plan is, is horrible. You director is not there so you don't know which group you belong to. So I sit there doing nothing except reading and going through files over and over again. Not knowing what you're reading also makes it worse.

I had to sms Loz and Nesrine every second asking what inventory, Assets, Equity, Aggregate credit position... is. At least I know they will be there for me :(

Not having a computer of your own makes it worse cause that's when you can't chat, check emails, or even play solitair and spades.

Then after 2 hours passing, I found the secretary coming to me saying you'll join this group, a nice lady started talking about how she joined and having 2 kids wanted one of them to go to DEO and that's how she learnt some german. Then she gave me more files to read as if I understood the 1st two but whatever.

After another 2 hours the secerarty comes again and says no you'll joing this group (as if it mattered) and that's how my first week was, doing nothing but reading files over and over again with a nice bordem smile on my face.

goodbys don't work with me

2 days ago, I had to say goodbye to a dear friend, hoping she will come back. I miss all the crazy things we used to do like going to ein sokhna at 2a.m. and coming back in the next morning, cruising around cairo till 4 am, talking on the phone bitching about life and work. it's always nice to have someone who can take take all your frustration and bitch at.

I know she's coming back which makes it easier, 2 months will fly (I keep convincing myself with it)